Can or Can't I

Something happen few minutes ago,,

It's kind of bad-good oath to me,,

This involve my future??

I don't know,but I should think and answer it soon

Hope I can get through this,,

YA ALLAH! Help me through all things here,now and forever,,

Please,please always listen to my little wishes so that I can get through all the big ones,,

Please,let the miracle happens

Though it can't be,but please let the miracle you made it for me,,

I'm begging to you as MY LORD 

as me,a SLAVE beg for you this one,,

I hurt my ma badly,,

but please let her be happy with this and all that happens after this and ever after

No need for my happiness,

Just 

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