I'm 22 today!! Yay!^^,,

Thanx to all of my family,friends,tak kira kawan baik,teman rapat,teman sepipit,teman serumah,teman sebilik dan yang special,,Terima kasih wahai kawan-kawanku~~

hehe^^,,

Thanx so much coz you all remembering me yet my birthday,,Even without a surprise present,a gift or cards,there's a special thing in here when you even remember me and my birthday,,

And saying those words,

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

means much more than you can ever imagine,,

Thank you once again~~

Do you know how I miss you??

It's not about a lover story but it is still a love story,,

It's hard to even say I do not have a person whom people used to call,,

"FATHER"

That person,I used to call PAPA,,he wasn't there anymore for me and my family,,My mama,even sadder than me,,She's quite funny,joking and smiles around on the outside,but inside?I know she wasn't like that,,

Ma,

If I'm not in this world anymore,I would just say 3 words regards on you,,

SUPERB + LOVE YOU,,

you are the superb mum I ever have ma! I never think of anyone else's mothers coz I know I have one too and I see that I have the goddess of mine,,

But PA,did you know?And did you see me??

I always wondering when we will meet each other again coz I really miss you badly,,

T____T

I even wondering,when will I die to see you soon??
You must be devastated  to hear me saying like that PA,,But I really miss you,,

Miss to see your funny expressions,,

Miss to see you jokes with MA

Miss to see you face with that glasses

Miss to see you smile

Miss to hear your voice

And how I really miss you calling my name. . . .

I'm sorry PA,I was really bad at it,,The way you taught me and the way you test me on something,I'm never gonna make it and do so,,I was different right?VERY MUCH DIFFERENT than you and even friends thought of it,,I am PA,I am. . . 

I'm going to reach 22 soon,,2 years gone without you beside me,calling me even you are on meetings and on aboard,,You even gave me cute cards that you only sign your initials there^^,,And even money coins as you want to tease me,,Also,you said that you won't buy me anything but in the end you brought a cake after your working hours and said,,

"Kawan papa yang bagi tuh,tapi xd sape nak makan,jadi wat balik laa..."

You deny it yet when I opened that case,it wrote,

"Happy _ _ birthday to  _ _ _ _, May your wish come true"

You even make a little surprised party with snacks and took some photos,,I think that you had gone too far by click that camera again and again,,It's not only for my birthday,but others as well,,You just snap all the time with your phone yet you just said,

"These are the invaluable moments that you can't even snap it with your mind for such seconds. . .The moments you lost it,that will be the moment you'll cries a lot coz it won't bring to you and your mind anymore. . .  "

But when you're not there anymore,you were right PA,,Those invaluable moments especially with you is the best I could ever had in my life,,

Thanks for everything PA,thanks!

>(-,-)<

Test dan 1001 rasa

Esok ada test CB dan yang pastinya saya berdebar,,Berdebar nak jawab test kot,,huhu,,

Pape pun,INSYA-ALLAH,I will do my very best,,Doa dari family espcially mama dan kawan-kawan dah cukup untuk saya buat sesuatu dengan lancar,,

Tak sabar nak habiskan test esok tu,baru senang nak buat kerja/assignments especially HRM,,Penat setelah banyak kali otak ne dikerah dan diperah,,~ ~

^_____T

test yang sangat mengujakan

Memang sangat berdebar dan harapnya dapat buat dengan sempurna,,

Test berderet sekali dengan assignment,,Buat kengkawan yang ada test tu,goodluck and all the best!!

Salahkah saya meminati sesuatu??

Ini pulak kes yang saya rasa tak lah berat manapun,cuma just nak luahkan jela,,

Saya tahu and my friends around me know me well yang saya meminati 'bahan-bahan' luar dari Malaysia ni especially KOREA,JEPUN and CHINA

I'm not saying as "THINGS" but yang saya minat adalah music and arts also their culture,,Saya tahu tak semua kawan saya 'gila-gila' macam saya dan minat benda yang sama macam saya,,NO! I never even thought of it laa,,

Saya bukanlah jenis yang pada tahap or level yang gila sampai semua benda dan artis yang saya minat semuanya saya nak dan saya suka,,

Dan saya takde lah sampai gila sangat sampai tak tahu SOLAT 5 WAKTU bila sampai masa sebab tengok benda yang saya minat tu,,

Dan foremost is,saya tak ada nak tukar bahasa bila bercakap dengan orang even dengan kawan baik saya mahupun family saya sendiri,,

Dan saya sendiri tak pernah nak kutuk-kutuk and mengata-ngata pada orang yang tak minat benda yang sama dengan saya minat,,

Bagi sayalah,ini my opinion,saya rasa tak perlu nak kutuk-kutuk lebih sangat pada yang minatya macam saya ni,,Saya sendiri tak pernah kutuk anda yang tak minat dan kenapa anda boleh pulak buat macam tu pada saya dan orang yang minat macam saya minat ni??

Tak perlu letak dalam blog or facebook macam. . .

"Siapa XXX ni??Produk buatan mana ni??"

or,

"Aku tak suka KOREA macam kau minat,so pegi BLAH laa"

or,

"Bodohnye la sebab minat benda yang takkan pernah muncul depan mata pun,,XXX pun takkan jadiknye BF/GF ko tu. . . "

or even

"I don't speak XXX like you do,,What's about it??NOTHING k??"

Saya tak kisahlah diorang nak luah perasaan sebab tension pada orang yang minat kat benda-benda yang dia sendiri tak minat,,Sebab saya sendiri tak kisah orang nak kata apa kat saya pasal benda yang saya minat,,Yang pastinya,saya tak kacau hidup orang dan saya sendiri tak cari pasal/cari gaduh dulu dalam hal macam ni,,

Kenapa perlu bersuara sedangkan orang itu sendiri tak pernah bercerita pada anda dan kenapa perlunya nada sindiran or menjengkelkan itu sedangkan anda sendiri yang cari pasal dengan bertanya dulu,,

Semua orang tak sama k??Semua orang ada minat masing-masing,,Biarlah kita hidup dengan penuh IKHLAS,tak perlu nak mengata/meng'anjing' dekat orang yang minatnya tak sama dengan kita,,

No need to show that,,Just show what you are,kan itu lebih menarik for our inner inside and tak ada la hipokrit depan orang,,

ALLAH S.W.T. cipta manusia dengan pelbagai jenis perwatakan dalam pelbagai acuan,,Ada masam,masin,manis,pahit dan segala rasa pada seorang manusia,,Kalau kita nak hidup bawah satu bumbung yang sama yakni dalam golongan ISLAM/MUKMIN yang bersatu dan bersama tu,kita mestilah accept orang lain jugak,,Jangan accept kita,DIRI kita je sebab tak bawa ke mana-mana pun,,

*Siapa yang baca dan siapa yang terasa,harap maaf dan harap maklum,ini adalah blog 'pelepasan harian' saya,TQ*